i have been spending to much time in this blog and this is the time to say goodbye
it doesnt mean that i will not write anymore but God knows my english literature is sucks
it just that i have lots of questions and thinkings that i thought i need to wrote it down
but now it's time to say goodbye to this blog that most of the contents reminds me of my alter ego
so, let's imagine one thing, let's follow me and follow my imagination
let say you are standing in a room, a room full of people doing many activities, let say it was in
an airport, Your vision was focused on how busy the people around you
suddenly something captured your attention
someone catch your attention
out of so many people
the outfit, the style, the confident and charisma
it catch your attention.
in my case that someone is the 'old me' a character that define me
my old style my confident and my charisma
in my case i wish i am the old me. i wish i still have a body that will looks
good in a leather jacket and skinny jeans and white t shirt
i wish i am still as daring and adventurous as i was before i wish i could still talk about something
light,
this 'someone' is something that you are not now, or someone that you want and adore so bad
and then after u imagine that character in your mind, open your eyes.
and you will realize whoever you imagine, there is the real character living in your life.
as for my case yes, i was hoping that i could go back to few years back and make some changes in
my life, maybe for some people they wish to treasure more times with family, or friends,
or finding a life partner.
this character could be a sign that you are deeply in love with someone or you were stuck in a
difficult situation, or you just creating something that you think is better than you are now.
as for me, i need to forgive and let go and let loose of things that is happening to me recently that makes me an angrier person and hoping that i could just stay back in singapore and never coming back home
but i was wrong, God give me the vision of that character to reminds me how far i was to get here and
not to give up.
and after thinking about it. i rather be in where i am now than where i was. at this moment i have a loving care boyfriend who always listens and makes me feel like i am the smartest and brightest girl
the kind of feeling that i never had before.
whatever your vision or character is. is for you to reflect what u need to be grateful of, or in which way you need t be more aggressive or more patient
it is for you to reflect your mistake, to be grateful with what you had now, and to continue the journey to receive that character with the help of god
so buddy, i say good bye.
