10 years a go i said goodbye
but still keep the dreams of having that white house
3 years after i was in denial, hoping that my fate would be better
in the hands of a keeper that will treat me better
5 years i was playing dress up, making him more look like
and trying to have another version of you.
now it seems like the time is ticking
and i am so afraid that i can't keep those memories
and how i remember it, it's like breathing and dreaming
something that keeps happened everyday
something that i did without purposely trying to remember it
today i made an oath. some to respect and honor his love
to never look back and wonder, to never wish and regrets
i know at that time, everything was so real, it was magical and
memorable. but they said magical things doesn't last .
back to reality, where i have never been happy enough.
so i guess i have no choice but to be a grown ups and hand in hand
with the reality side by side till the end of time.
the way i laugh and the way i giggles the way i jokes and
the way i love to look at you.
before it kills, i have to say goodbye
i have to say goodbye to my fantasy if that is what
you think it is.
and to embrace my future. he was beside me and held my hands saying
it will be alright. at least my future promised me it will be alright
i have nothing left but to trust and follow his lead.
au revoir to the ghost i love the most
