au revoir

10 years a go i said goodbye

but still keep the dreams of having that white house

3 years after i was in denial, hoping that my fate would be better

in the hands of  a keeper that will treat me better

5 years i was playing dress up, making him more look like

and trying to have another version of you.

now it seems like the time is ticking

and i am so afraid that i can't keep those memories

and how i remember it, it's like breathing and dreaming

something that keeps happened everyday

something that i did without purposely trying to remember it

today i made an oath. some to respect and honor his love

to never look back and wonder, to never wish and regrets

i know at that time, everything was so real, it was magical and

memorable. but they said magical things doesn't last .

back to reality, where i have never been happy enough.

so i guess i have no choice but to be a grown ups and hand in hand

with the reality side by side till the end of time.

the way i laugh and the way i giggles the way i jokes and

the way i love to look at you.

before it kills, i have to say goodbye

i have to say goodbye to my fantasy if that is what

you think it is.

and to embrace my future. he was beside me and held my hands saying

it will be alright. at least my future promised me it will be alright

i have nothing left but to trust and follow his lead.

au revoir to the ghost i love the most