lite my fire

i used to smoke 1 pack a day,

i used to carry Marlboro red and lucky strike red every day.

that has been going on for 4 years.

but i don't like to smoke in public, i enjoyed it when i am alone in my room

when i wake up, before i go to sleep, when i draw, or thinking.

it used to be my moment. it's like breathing to me

i decided to stop when i witnessed that my dad's health is worsen

and when my teeth is not as glowing anymore

and when my skin is not so radiance anymore

i stop for almost 3 years now. :)

and today when i should have finish my work i stressed out i freaked out and..,

i took 1 cigarette from my mom's purse.

went to my room and have a little break, and lit my cigarette

and suddenly, i felt no urge to smoke, i feel bitter in my mouth.

i don't feel like smoking.

so i stop

it's weird but God work in mysterious way

maybe it came across my mind as well how terrible it affects my skin and

i just spend almost 300sgd$ to bleach my teeth. yup it is that bad,

so guys, i do believe everything that is happening in your life, there is some

decision being made. please don't be afraid to be wrong,

and don't be afraid to tell God that you need help

and don't be afraid to come to God with everything that you are,

whether you are a smoker, drinker, gambler, or if you have any addiction condition

He knows, and His judgement is over. He is on your side to tell you, whatever it is

He loves you, and you are His beloved forever.

so when you remember how much God loves you. that urge to smoke will fade away.

coz His Grace and love reign over sins.

now, i rather listening to God's grace and love towards me

rather than, smoke and thinking what would i be tomorrow.

love,

+tsl